My Story
I am a Butterfly Warrior.
Designer. Student of the body. Seeker. I have spent a lifetime learning how to inhabit myself fully — and one passage cracked me open wide enough to finally do it.
My name is Carita. I am an interior designer by talent and by training — someone who has always understood that the spaces we inhabit shape how we feel inside them. That same instinct turned inward. I have spent years studying nutrition, exploring the mind-body connection, sitting with near-death experiences, and learning to read my own body like a language. What I share here is not a recovery story. It is a becoming story.
"I am a Butterfly Warrior, I Carita."
The Designer
I have always seen the world in terms of space, light, and relationship. Interior design is not decoration — it is the art of understanding how human beings feel inside the environments they inhabit. That sensitivity to environment, to energy, to the way things are arranged — it became the lens through which I eventually understood my own body. Every room tells a story. So does every cell.
I have always known that how we arrange our world reflects how we feel inside it.
The Student of the Body
For years I studied nutrition with the same intensity I brought to design. Not as a diet, but as a language — learning what the body is asking for, what it is trying to say. I explored near-death experiences, somatic therapy, energy work, and the deep psychology of how trauma lives in the body. I got closer and closer to myself. That closeness changed everything about how I move through the world.
The body keeps the score — and it also keeps the map. You just have to learn to read it.
The Passage
There was a chapter in my life that I call the component — the thing that deemed my life for me to expand into more. A health crisis that stripped away every distraction and asked me to become fully present to my own existence. I am not defined by it. But I am shaped by it. It accelerated everything I had already been learning. It made the work urgent, and real, and mine.
Some passages don't break you. They break you open.
The Butterfly Warrior
A butterfly does not fight its way out of the chrysalis. It surrenders to the transformation. It trusts the process even when it cannot see the outcome. That is what I learned to do — not to be passive, but to be present. To let the hard things change me instead of destroy me. I am a Butterfly Warrior. Not because I am fearless, but because I kept going even when I was terrified. And I am still going.
A warrior is not someone without fear. A warrior is someone who moves through it anyway.
This story is still being written.
I am not at the end of this journey. I am in the middle of it, like most of us are. But I have learned enough — about healing, about the body, about design, about what it means to be truly present — that I want to share it. Not as an expert. As a fellow traveler who has done the work and keeps doing it.